It’s 3 months until the end of the year. Vision 2020 is already here amongst us. I can hardly believe how fast this year has gone…so so fast. It was only recently that I was so excited about the beginning of 2019. Well,it’s not over yet. Duh! Still a few more weeks to…to do whatever. I started the year with the idea of winging it. Which I have been doing. I left the new year resolution note-downs for the birds and all those who are wayy too organised. I didn’t have any particular goal that I had to see to. I just wanted to live and see what it was going to bring me.
2019 bought me love. It me bought me stronger friendship bonds. It bought me coming to my own identity…I guess this is something that’s always evolving. Coming to yourself,I mean. You always discover something new about yourself as time goes by. Everyday,you learn.
I turned 30. I was waaayyy excited about that at the beginning of the year. I felt like I’d made it. The excitement is waning off though. LOL. I don’t know…at some point there,I felt like I hadn’t achieved much. Like I had nothing to show in my 30 years. That feeling felt like a cold splash on my face. I told my best friend and she corrected me. Reminded me that ofcourse I had something to show for this year. I’d grown.. emotionally. Physically too. Am always growing physically…. I love food too much! (And that’s why I live on the 5th floor…in an apartment building that has no lift!). But she reminded me that I was better in touch with myself than I was previously. I knew what I wanted and what I didn’t want. Which is so true. That is something,I guess. I nodded to that.
I guess what am trying to say here is that achievements don’t always have to be solid. Like, things that are seen to the naked eye. There are some people who have gotten out of situations that they didn’t think they’d ever get out of. That’s big! The getting over the smallest of hurdels to yourself is an achievement…an accomplishment.
Life is already hard enough.. tricky… complicated…spanners thrown in there….We don’t need to be putting pressure on ourselves.
We are here. I am here. Am alive and surviving and doing the best I can. And honestly,maybe getting better at this.
That’s an achievement enough.